Gettin' generous again! :)

Welcome to my (new, improved, and updated!) blog!  Although it's embarassing for me to admit this, I haven't updated this site since early 2007.  YIKES! 

When I kept this blog three years ago, I found it really therapeutic.  I've decided to restart it now by cleaning out my old entries and starting over with a new focus...namely, discovering my identity and purpose in life.  (I know, right?!  Nothing like setting modest goals for yourself... :))

Let me back up:  over the past few years (and past few months, especially!), I have been a veritable poster child for indecisiveness.  I have been changing majors, career choices, and future aspirations ever since I graduated from high school.  I have wavered back and forth on whether or not I want to depart from my current job (it's "good enough," but is that good enough?), go back to school (I've applied to multiple grad programs, turned down multiple admissions offers, and dropped multiple sample classes...yes; I am a registrar's nightmare!), or simply stay as I am until God tells me otherwise.

I don't want to isolate anyone by labeling this a purely religious blog...yet the main reason that I want to have this blog in place is to wrestle with my big questions about life, love, and faith. The Bible says that if I seek God first, everything else will fall into place...but how can I be sure that will happen? What if I seek God wholeheartedly, and STILL end up just as confused as I am right now?  How come some people have their life's purpose mapped out from infancy, and I just don't seem to get it yet?

My optimistic, faith-focused self says that God has something amazing planned for my life...He's just not ready to reveal it to me yet!  The doubtful, questioning side of me, though, still somehow has me saying, "Um, excuse me...Jenna?  The clock's tickin', sister! Quit wasting your time and just get your life started already!"

I want to make my life count for something.  I want to make the most of every day, and not go to bed at night feeling like I wasted my time.  I like perusing People.com and Facebook-stalking as much as the next person :), but I'm at a point right now where I feel like I'm doing far too much of that, and not enough LIVING.

Haha!  I'm not sure if other twentysomethings (or ANYsomethings!) have felt this pressure to "discover yourself" like I do, but if so, maybe this blog will resonate with you a little bit!  I will do my best to make these entries  heartfelt, honest and HOPEFUL...I definitely don't have all (or really, any!) of the answers...but I KNOW that a world of possibilities are out there!

Until next time,
your humble blog hostess,
Jenna :)